The Awkward Stage

I’m totally in that weird place.  That place where the clothes you bought when you gained weight are getting too big and the clothes you grew out of are still a little too small.  I have two “problem areas” so to speak – my arms (the bingo wings) and my hips/behind.  I put problem areas in quotes because at my weight it seems dumb to call anything a problem area, but these are the two areas that are preventing my old wardrobe from fitting properly.  It’s annoying b/c I have to layer my tops b/c of the necklines (why do people think all big girls have huge boobs and/or want to show off what boobs they have????) being a little too revealing for work but I can’t go down b/c my arms don’t fit at all in the smaller arm holes.  But the real problem are my pants.  My pants are falling down / the belt is gathering more material than makes sense but the next size down hugs my hips like a long lost lover but fits perfectly everywhere but that one spot. Awkward.

In other notes – I’ve fallen in love with a blog – Can You Stay for Dinner? and I don’t know what to do other than profess my love of the writing, the story, and the real life truths she dishes out along with amazing recipes.  I’ve already printed 3 or 4 blog posts in the last 24 hours and pinned like 10 recipes.  It’s ridiculous.   The blog posts I’ve printed are about how she got her mind right and ready for weight loss, how to make a 400 calorie (read aloud: filling ) salad, and how to prep for a week of good eating.  Considering I woke up this AM and ended up with a cup of cottage cheese w/ pineapple, grapes, and a cheese stick staring back at me as my food that is supposed to last through tomorrow – I clearly need to read about these prep days. I haven’t read a single thing about weight loss that makes as much sense to me as she does – perhaps because the perspective of someone who has lost 135 lbs and kept it off is going to be a little different and a little wiser than someone who has only studied how to do it.  I think that trainers are great at telling you how to exercise, but the mental aspect – that can only come from someone who has been there, done that.  I didn’t realize that until yesterday when I found this post and the question could have been written by me.  I quote the question

How did 9 out of 10 times you choose the healthy option while losing? How did you not make drive through runs at Wendy’s, eat a whole pizza and so on? How did you STICK TO IT? I feel like I KNOW what to do. I KNOW how to eat, what to etc. There is NO lack of knowledge or accessibility to the right foods. It’s just doing it.”


Um hello.  Yes…that is the question that I’ve been asking myself for years and never finding an answer.  Andrea (the hostess of Can You Stay for Dinner?) gave an answer and damn if I’m not going to spend the weekend going through it line by line (again) and working through her suggestions for how to build a stick to it mindset.  Yes mindset – not a workout plan on eating plan.   A mindset and a set of goals that may or may not be exercise/food related but definitely work towards building a better life.  I love her advice – because it’s not “well just do it” or “overhaul your lifestyle overnight.”  I’ve tried both of these and I always end up asking myself the same quote as above so doing something else, especially since it deals with the mental aspect (which quite frankly I’ve never had a plan actually address), just seems like a good weekend activity.

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