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Focus, Determination, DRIVE

Today was day 10 for P90x for me.  I splurged a little this morning as I’ve been kind of on a little retail therapy kick this weekend and bought myself a little something special – a set of sportblocks!

I love them.  Like seriously love them.  My old weights were a messy jumble and they didn’t actually weigh what they said they weighed and I couldn’t change them fast enough.  Now I just set these and go go go!  I didn’t buy the stand, just the weights because the stupid stand was almost the same price as the weights.  I sit these on my old transfirmer and that is a flat enough surface.  The stand would be awesome – taller and at an angle…but not worth the cash for me today.  Anyway, these weights are amazing and I can tell I’m getting a better workout because I’m using the appropriate weight.
Today’s workout also made me think a lot about my progress so far.  I have done really well over the last 5 months.  So well it’s hard for me to even really wrap my brain around…it’s why I take so many progress pictures, it helps me see what I can’t believe yet.

So now, I’m in this incredible mental place.  I’m now at the point where I really want to start focusing on pushing myself to get to the maintenance phase.  I’m not that close to it – I have at least another 40 lbs to lose.  But I think that I’m at a point where I am seeing the body changes more than just a shrinking body.  I am starting to see some definition in my arms when I flex and very slight lines on my stomach. When I lift weights during P90x I can see the muscles now.  I am starting to realize that my body is going through a major change that I can control.  That’s why I decided to plunk down the money for the sportblocks today.  It’s why I am about to do some major diet adjustments and start focusing on my diet more during the work day (meaning drinking my water, even if it means a million pee breaks) and staying away from the candy jar (Tabby will have to help me here!).  At home I am going to stay dedicated to my workouts and my clean eating and I am going to steadily tweak my diet for better satiety and make more dishes at home.  
Essentially, the last couple of days I have really realized not that I can do this.  But that I AM doing this.  I AM making my body healthy, strong, and well.  I am driven to be the women I have dreamed of being….the only factor is time.